Me, Myself and Dylan: September 2009

I got done for drink driving following a night out with the girls, not cause I was driving particularly poorly, but because someone saw me getting into my car and reported me.

There is no justification for drink driving, I could have killed someone, but on this particular night I was 200 yards from my home when the police pulled me over.

Home but not safe!

It took 3 months before I went to court. It was horrible.

I went to see a probationer, who was very lovely, I ended up with an 18 month ban. Not half as bad as I had thought, in fact so much better than I could of hoped.

But what with the other stuff going on in life. I spent one Friday afternoon with several cans of beer, a bit of wine and a cocktail of tablets. Poor Helen was at the receiving end of my "this is it text". Yes suicide by txt!

I'm now seeing a councillor, its hard cause I have to deal with some stuff I don't want to deal with. My medication is being reviewed. Ive never felt quite this low. But all in all I'm better than I was, ill, but being treated. Sad but no longer suicidal. Stupid but no longer pathetic.

Ive also come to realise how truly blessed I am with family and friends, all of whom were appalled at my behaviour but so supportive. Without them I would not be here.

Other than the above crap, we've had some lovely days out.

We went to Ingrahm Valley with mum and dad, it was windy but fun.